inspired

it’s pathetic  how i  have to rely on extrinsic factors for inspiration. the motivational talks i sometimes give others, work on them, but do no wonders on me. i rely on books, music, friends for motivation, inspiration. now i found a new source; but i need intrinsic discipline to carry it through to the shore. For that, I have to rely on God himself.

the need to prioritize, the necessity to distinguish my needs from my wants, the importance of acknowledging and fulfilling my duty, the compelling need to cast aside my lazy mind and body and stop procrastinating – yes, this is what i have to do now. again, i have to summon Edward to help me through.